May 29, 2008
Click To Pause
With me no longer working for/with people worthy of little more than being made fish food, I find in recent times that I have little to complain about. And it was the complaints which fueled this writing effort all along whether I realized it or not. Most of the laughter along the way was just filler.
There has been so much negativity in my life--too much for too long--that even when I felt upbeat, positive, full of life, there seemed these spectres lurking inside me waiting to burst forth and fuck it all up. I know. That's just a bunch of metaphorical junk. You're right.
But in recent weeks events have unfolded which have opened my eyes to some pretty damned important things in my life, and I don't want to lose them. Right now I'm just trying to understand them, more so understand her. We've been together for a long time, longer than any of our friends were ever joined, and it's like I'm seeing her for the first time; and hopefully, if there is any hope, she is seeing me anew too.
So I'm taking a pause from writing to focus on her and this thing we have made together--this life--to tease out the good from the bad so that we can start again to move together in step as we once did (I hope); like we should have been doing all along. Here marks the beginning of a redo. I want to muster the courage to (once again) introduce myself to her and see if I can't coax this beautiful woman, who has given so much to me over the years while hiding so much of herself away while doing it, out from behind her diaphanous veil that I might meet the real her... here... now... and possibly for the first time (ever). And all this without breaking her.
When I started this thing, all I asked for was 108 years. What I failed to convey (to myself and others) was that I only ever truly wanted that time to be spent with her at my side every step of the way.
Posted by Tacitus at 06:08 PM | Comments (2)
May 07, 2008
Spring Finality - Part 2
Like an overcooked microwave burrito... *DING* I'm done. Not enough energy left for a 'woo' or even a 'hoo'. I'm going to bed.
Posted by Tacitus at 11:36 AM | Comments (0)
May 03, 2008
Spring Finality - Part 1
Totally blew my philosophy final. Lowered my grade by a whole letter. I'm sure of it. So much for my near-stellar GPA.
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May 02, 2008
I Sing, You Sing, We All Sing...
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...karaoke...
...at...
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