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December 22, 2006
Maineward, Ho!
Going to Maine for the holiday. Be back soon.
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December 14, 2006
Intermission
If you've got 16 minutes and 37 seconds to spare (plus time for an obligatory add), take a break and watch In God We Trust at Atom Films. (It's work safe -- for those who surf at work... Ha!). Then go out and dance! Oh, and drink a smoothie. They're worth 7 points.
[UPDATE: It's gone, and I don't know to where.]
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December 12, 2006
Here's the Deal
I'm still in New Jersey. My big project is done, and I'm ready to get the hell out of Dodge (meaning: I'm ready to leave). I'm looking for a big change. I desire to go somewhere I have not been. I'm looking at Washington; the state, not DC. Why? Because it's far away. Because it will be new. Because I'm sick of family. Because my friends are scattered to the four winds. Because there is nothing for me here.
Why not go "home" some friends ask? They think home for me is Virginia, but it's not; never has been. I'm from California, but I haven't been "home" in so long that the California I remember is certainly long gone. Returning would feel as alien as Virginia and New Jersey do now. So forward is the only path open.
Another friend recently reminded me opened my eyes to the fact that life is too short not to take chances. I love her for that and much more. Not taking chances is how I was reared; to be responsible to a fault; to deny my own desires for the sake of others' needs; to always take the safe path, because mediocrity equates to just enough success to be happy-ish without any real risk. Fuck all that. I'm now out for me. I'm leaving it all behind. This may be running away, but at least I'm running forward.
Relax. I'm not leaving my love and offspring behind, though such dark thoughts have entered my mind. Our destinies are a Gordian Knot for better or worse. At best I love them. At worst I would not have them to suffer this place any longer than I. So we travel together. Maybe some middle ground can be found between their needs and my desires. I have to hope there is, because even if I swear to totally indulge my own wants, I cannot forsake them. It's in my nature to sacrifice to the point of misery that others may be happy. But I also know that my unhappiness impacts them too.
So I'm updating my resume and working up the nerve to actually apply to jobs. Yeah, this is hardly an "I'm out of here" post, but soon. I have been a multimedia producer and developer, a programmer analyst, an archaeologist, archival photographer, researcher and librarian, boatyard hand, and more. Have been? I am still all those things. I'm just rustier at some.
So if you know of any good jobs in the Seattle area send them my way.
End Transmission.
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