one.o.eight

May 29, 2008

Click To Pause

With me no longer working for/with people worthy of little more than being made fish food, I find in recent times that I have little to complain about. And it was the complaints which fueled this writing effort all along whether I realized it or not. Most of the laughter along the way was just filler.

There has been so much negativity in my life--too much for too long--that even when I felt upbeat, positive, full of life, there seemed these spectres lurking inside me waiting to burst forth and fuck it all up. I know. That's just a bunch of metaphorical junk. You're right.

But in recent weeks events have unfolded which have opened my eyes to some pretty damned important things in my life, and I don't want to lose them. Right now I'm just trying to understand them, more so understand her. We've been together for a long time, longer than any of our friends were ever joined, and it's like I'm seeing her for the first time; and hopefully, if there is any hope, she is seeing me anew too.

So I'm taking a pause from writing to focus on her and this thing we have made together--this life--to tease out the good from the bad so that we can start again to move together in step as we once did (I hope); like we should have been doing all along. Here marks the beginning of a redo. I want to muster the courage to (once again) introduce myself to her and see if I can't coax this beautiful woman, who has given so much to me over the years while hiding so much of herself away while doing it, out from behind her diaphanous veil that I might meet the real her... here... now... and possibly for the first time (ever). And all this without breaking her.

When I started this thing, all I asked for was 108 years. What I failed to convey (to myself and others) was that I only ever truly wanted that time to be spent with her at my side every step of the way.

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May 07, 2008

Spring Finality - Part 2

Like an overcooked microwave burrito... *DING* I'm done. Not enough energy left for a 'woo' or even a 'hoo'. I'm going to bed.

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May 03, 2008

Spring Finality - Part 1

Totally blew my philosophy final. Lowered my grade by a whole letter. I'm sure of it. So much for my near-stellar GPA.

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May 02, 2008

I Sing, You Sing, We All Sing...

...karaoke...

...at...

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April 26, 2008

No Time for Love, Dr. Jones!

3 lab reports, 2 term projects, and 2 final exams to go!
Come May 6th I'm free... or dead... or both.

...then Summer semester begins. -_-

And somewhere in here I should see the new Indy movie: Indiana Jones and the... Really Long, Stupid, Unmemorable Title I Can't Remember Except That It's Really Long and Stupid and Unmemorable (just like The Phantom Menace). :P Although the title is "pulpy" I'll give it that. :D

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March 23, 2008

Maybe Someday

I've loved the Nissan Skyline GT-R since I first came to know of it back in '97. They're simply lovely cars in all respects. But being unavailable in the USA (save via expensive private import), they've always been beyond affordable to me. Now Nissan is bringing a new GT-R to market, and this time that market includes the USA. Honestly, I doubt the 2009 GT-R will be any closer to a realm of affordable for me, but that fact doesn't detract from the car's appeal. "Maybe someday," I'll just keep telling myself that. It's worked my whole life so far. :/

Of course, I'd "settle" for an old R34 (or R33 or R32) any day of the week. <.<

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March 14, 2008

Jesus' Snow-White Zorro*

Amaranth by Nightwish (misheard lyrics edition):

Here's the actual music video.

* alternate post title: Hiding M&Ms in a Lamb

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March 13, 2008

le Dernier Poilu

"War is completely stupid." -- Lazare Ponticelli
(December 7, 1897 - March 12, 2008)
Requiescat in pace, poilu.

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March 12, 2008

Spring Break Slacking

This week is Spring Break, and I've been slacking. Freed of my weekly (neigh impossibly) demanding schedule for the past few days has put me into a giddy state of achieving nothing! I've played WoW way too much and attended to what I should be doing way too little.

One of my professors commented that Spring Break is the time when research continues without the interruptions of lectures. I remember being told the same thing during my undergraduate studies years ago. It's an old joke--not unlike immortal schoolyard humour.

So today I'm being trying to be good, and focus on what I have to have ready for next week. I'm not having much luck. Maybe it's just as well. The 24/7 study gauntlet with its 3-hour-a-day sleep schedule and continuous read/review/experiment/write cycle will arrive sooner than I like.

I hear WoW calling. Peace.

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March 11, 2008

Revolution Three

Three years of blogginess. Yes, that's a word... Well it is now!

The last year saw me escape New Jersey (*hiss*) for Georgia (surprisingly *yay!*), give up my career and take up as a grad student full time, give up my house for a rinky-dink apartment, and more! Who knows where all this madness will land me?

Once more around the Sun! Ya, mule! *cracks the whip*

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